I’ve been struggling with a certain disappointment the last few days. It could be real or imagined. I am not sure yet. Struggling enough that it has bent my view of the world. I am seeing the whole world through this dark lens of perceived disappointment; I can’t appreciate the good. I feel incompetent and like a failure. I’ve talked to the Lord about it; it is still hassling me, poking at me and mocking me. However, I am better today and expect that shortly it’ll be a thing of the past.
But as I asked the Lord about it again tonight, he sort of gently pointed out that maybe this severe disappointment is due to an idol being crushed in my life. Now, I am not saying that all disappointments are the result of idolatry.
Still, I thought I was beyond this. But idols like to feign resurrection. It’s not that they were dead and are now coming to life; it’s that they were never dead.
So I am going to wrap this up and say that I will practice the spiritual discipline of considering this thing I believe to be an idol (An idol I thought was dead) as dead. I’ll practice the discipline of relinquishment. And boy do I need to practice!
Pray for me. I’ll remember you too–even if I don’t know who you are. I often pray for those who stumble across this site.